Still in shock, laying down on the bed and staring into
space, uncle cheatmaster said,”Meso, stand up now and
go and clean yourself or do you want me to wash up for
you?”
I didn’t say a word, I only stood up, picked up my clothes
and went straight into his bathroom to clean up. When I
got in, I stood right under the shower and let the water
pour down on me. I didn’t even move for a while or
realize when tears started running down from my eyes. I
felt very unclean. I felt like a wasted good. I didn’t know
much about sex or virginity but I knew that as a Christian,
everything that happened was all wrong. I wasn’t
supposed to have sex at this age, let alone with my uncle.
I was supposed to wait for the right time. “Keep yourself
for your husband,” my mum had said to me one time. My
mind couldn’t stop processing a lot of things at once.
What just happened? What will I do? Who will I run to? I
kept asking myself those questions while crying. When I
was done having my bath, I stepped out of the shower,
dried myself up and put on my clothes uncle cheatmaster
had almost torn while trying to get me naked. I was in so
much pain I couldn’t even walk well. Apart from the fact
that I had just been raped, I had body pains from his tight
grip and weight that rested on me while he raped me. I
got out of the bathroom, looking around to see if he was
somewhere in the room but he wasn’t. He had also
changed the bedsheets and arranged the room leaving it
looking as innocent as it is a lie. On my way to my
room for the night, I stopped by the sitting room to check
for uncle cheatmaster or Esther. I sighted Esther still
engrossed in the cartoon she was watching and uncle
cheatmaster busy with his phone. I didn’t want them to
notice my presence so I walked quietly to the room. I
guess that didn’t work because immediately after I shut
the door, I heard footsteps coming from the sitting room
and I was so sure it was uncle cheatmaster. I ignored it
anyway and got in bed to continue sulking when I saw the
door open and uncle cheatmaster walked in, shutting the
door behind him.
“Meso!!! Meso!!!” he said as he walked to the side of the
bed where I laid and went on his knees.
I didn’t want to see him and so I turned the other way, my
back facing him.
“Meso, I know you’re angry with me and I’m so sorry. I
don’t know what to call my action. I’m very sorry Meso.
It’s just because I love you. I can’t stay away from you
too long. I needed you at that moment, if not, I don’t
know what would have happened to me. Meso, please
forgive me, I know I shouldn’t have forced you but I don’t
know what came over me. I love you, baby. I really do.
You know you’re the only one that has my heart. Please!
Meso forgive me. Please let’s keep it a secret. Let it just
be between us. I know you love me too,” uncle
cheatmaster said.
I just couldn’t face him after what had happened because
I was scared of him. I wanted to recover and possibly just
wake up from a dream like the one I had of him the other
time. If only I knew that the dream was trying to tell me
something, I wouldn’t have pushed it aside. The funny
thing was even with what uncle cheatmaster did to me,
there was no hatred in my heart for him. I didn’t even
dislike him which was strange but I was definitely scared.
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Uncle cheatmaster’s side of the story
I knew Meso would be so scared of me. I knew she
wouldn’t want to look me in the eyes again but I needed
her forgiveness. I really loved Meso and I didn’t want the
relationship we had to destroy because of my action. Her
back still facing me, I kept on begging her hoping she
would just turn to face me even if it was just for a minute.
I actually felt really bad for doing what I did but I couldn’t
take it back. I don’t know why Meso had just been all up
in my head for a while now. I mean I had had affairs with
other women that were more mature, wife material and all
of those package as they call it but something kept on
pulling me closer to Meso. Trust me, I knew it was all
wrong but I couldn’t figure out what was happening to
me.
“Uncle, why me?” Meso said as she finally turned to face
me, still not looking into my eyes.
“Meso, like I said, I don’t know what came over me but I
really love you. I’m sure you know that. Please, Meso,
forgive me,” I replied hoping she would say something
else but she just turned her back on me without saying a
word. I sighed, standing up and said, “Thank you” before
leaving the room. I had a feeling Meso had forgiven me
but I still felt badThe next day, I had to take Meso and
Esther back home before noon and so I got them ready
by ten o’clock in the morning and drove them home.
Meso wasn’t still in a bright mood but I didn’t want to
push it so I didn’t say a word to her while we were in the
car. We just drove off in silence. When we got to the
house, I greeted my brother and his wife before saying
my goodbye. Before I left, I glanced at Meso one last time
who also glanced at me before I got into my car and
drove off.
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Meso’s part.
Later that day, my mum took me to the market to buy the
remaining items I needed as a boarder. I didn’t even say a
word about what happened between me and uncle
cheatmaster. I just kept looking and acting like a dummy
because my expression only showed forth sadness. I was
able to walk better than I could before from all the pain,
so I managed to endure and pretend like I was okay in
front of my mum. She noticed I was sad but she only
thought it was because I was going to the boarding
house and so she consoled me for the wrong reason. I
tried my best to cheer up and forget it. I didn’t know why
I couldn’t tell because uncle cheatmaster didn’t even
threaten me or something, he only begged. It hurt me that
I wasn’t even angry with him. Usually, when I hear of
other people’s rape incident or movies on rape incidents,
I see how bitter and angry the victims are. They spit and
throw curses on their abusers but I wasn’t in that state. I
couldn’t understand my situation. I could only feel hurt in
silence.
The next day, after church, I took my meal and slept for
about an hour before I was being woken up by Esther
who said I was being called by our parents. My parents
called me into the sitting room, sat me down and gave
me lectures on you know what. They told me to always
be focused, be prayerful, face my studies and all of that in
which I paid attention. They even concluded that they
knew I was sad about leaving for the hostel but It was for
the best and all of that. I just kept on nodding and a few
minutes later, we were done talking. After about an hour
more, I packed my luggage into the trunk of the car and
we drove straight to the hostel with my parents seated at
the front and my sister, beside me in the car. I took it
upon myself to forget about all that happened between
me and uncle cheatmaster since it had already occured
and vowed to keep it a secret.
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To be continued………
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